Mood swing

For Lack of better words this is entitled mood swing
I'm not talking about the quickly ohhh I love life. get away from me! PMS Kinda thing
I'm talking about how everything seems to be lovely, in your life.
and than one day you wake up and it seems that everything and everyone is gone.
Almost to have been sucked into a vast hole, and you were the only one not taken.
or worse, that everyone chose to leave and somewhere along the way you never even realized you weren't invited.

Until today, Your sitting here, wonderfing what went wrong.
When did this happen, and your struck with the realization that if you didn't even notice them leave. than maybe, it is your fault they left.
Let me tell you its a horrible feeling.

There is nothing like feeling like your losing your best friend,
sometimes its out of jealousy
or out of pure anxiety
when in reality she is still there.
Maybe, were supposed to be afraid
otherwise, maybe we don't really care.
because if we lose them, it doesn't matter.
but if we do lose them, it does, so thats why we worry.
I"m not sure. and if That doesn't make any sense to what i'm trying to emote
I deeply apologize at the moment i'm having a crisis.
and wondering what happened.

Breaking up with someone is hard.
You lose your guy, that special person that makes you feel like your worth something
not only that but that your extraordinary.
but you can bounce back, after many months, why?
because you have your friends
the ones that back you up, hold your hand and scream shit.

Because, they hate seeing you so conflicted.
Losing a friend on the other hand.

You can't, recover, the same
You can't just find another. bestfriend
like you can a guy. a guy is a guy..
a best friend, is a sister is a Soul mate

I just, I don't know.
I'm lost, and confused. and
maybe i'm just over emotional, but one day I woke up.
and I wondered....

where did everyone go?